Today I asked Facebook if anyone felt like they were on the verge of a nervous breakdown re: the current events (Charlottesville, VA). It got a lot of likes, so I figured people felt my existential trepidation. However, I scared some family members including my father who called to ask if I was okay. I said that frankly, I wasn’t really. I said that as a Jewish woman, I was afraid and angry and I felt like the majority of the country was feeling the same. If you are living under a rock, a Neo-Nazi protest occurred in Charlottesville, VA over the weekend resulting in the death of three individuals and the injury of many. When the president acknowledged the protest, he blamed “both sides” and made no mention of the white supremacists who indicted the rally and claimed lives. When he eventually denounced white supremacy 48 hours later, it felt like very much too little too late. Hell, the man has appointed known white supremacists to powerful positions in the White House.
Sometimes you have to take a step back from the world or you’ll go nuts. That’s exactly what I’m doing tonight. I’m making some of my favorite comfort food, tagliatelle with Italian meatballs, and drinking a GREAT wine. I was so excited to get my hands on the Major Wines Pinot Noir. I feel like I know the winemaker, Andrew Major, because he is originally from the Kansas City area and he is super active and nice on social media. The 2014 vintage ran out quickly last year, so when I heard the 2015 was being released, I was on the lookout. Luckily I spotted it at Underdog over the weekend (one of two bottles left on the shelf) and snatched it up. This wine looks like straight up cranberry juice but smells like burning leaves in the autumn. On the palate it is mushroom risotto and nutty, underripe raspberries. I know the last two don’t necessarily sound like the best combination, but it is great.
Major Wines produces small batches of amazing wine. For example, they only produced 125 cases of the current vintage. Isn’t that insane to imagine? Mainstream wineries produce tens of thousands of cases per year, maybe more, I don’t really know because I don’t like them. It makes me feel very lucky to be able to have this wine. I originally wanted to save this for a special occasion, but as I wrote a few posts back, I think there is something to actually opening the wines you are saving. Sure it’s fun to have a great bottle on hand when you want to toast a special occasion, but sometimes it’s Tuesday night and you feel like the fact that you got out of bed and made it through the workday is worthy of applause, especially considering the state of the world.
I have some family members who support Trump and probably think I am the snowiest of snowflakes. I would love to sit down with them and have them explain their views to me and then let me explain mine. I know they would never go for this. Half of my family is very WASP-y and there are certain topics you just don’t talk about. However, it is my staunch belief that if you remain silent in the face of injustice you are complicit. Once in a Western Civ. class, the professor asked what we thought we would do during the Holocaust, had we the opportunity to act. Someone said that there was no way to know and I countered with “what are you doing now to stop injustice? That is probably what you would have done then.” Look, I’m not a perfect example-- I haven’t spoken out to most of my family who support Trump. However, I support social justice initiatives that are important to me and I feel like that is a start.
Shout out to my friend Blake who messaged me thanking me for posting about having a breakdown. He said he felt like maybe he was the only one feeling that way. It was encouraging to hear from someone I admire so much who felt similarly to how I was feeling. There are so many of us that are in this fight together and we just need to find each other and roll up our sleeves. I also recommend listening to Radiohead’s album Hail to the Thief. It helped me a lot after the election and I’ve been turning to it the last few days when life feels so fucked up beyond repair. I hope you fight the good fight and then take care of yourself with some good food and good wine.